Getting Back on Track

Well it has been a little while since I have written anything on this blog of mine. The reason... Well, drama, drama, and more drama! Oh how that drama chases me. I have to take a step back, regroup, and refocus on MY priorities.

To run from all the drama, I decided to take a break from it all. The kids and I went on vacation for a couple of weeks. We camped at our property, visited the in-laws, and just had a fun easy-going couple of weeks. Unfortunately, I was flying solo; Mike had to stay home the first week because he couldn't get the time off from work, and the second week he flew to Wisconsin for business. So night time duties were a bit stressful, but other than that, we had a great time.

I have been neglecting myself... A LOT lately! I have not been making good food choices, exercising, or drinking enough water. I haven't even allowed myself 10 minutes of quiet to think! I can totally feel the difference. A few weeks ago I had more energy, better focus, and a positive mindset. Now I feel run down, scatter brained, and am feeling a bit defeated. I gained 2 pounds... I hate having to start over...ugh!

I have to find a way to not allow other peoples drama to affect me the way it does. When I say "other people", I mean people that are close to me and that I care about. Often I feel like I care more about them then they care about themselves. When I become too stressed out or worried, I have a tendency to shutdown. I have no motivation or focus. I just want to relax and do nothing. I know that this is not the healthy way to handle anything. A wonderful way of fighting off the "blues" is to exercise, but where do I find that initial motivation to get up and go?

The last couple of years I have started taking drastic measures and "weeding-out" many drama lifestyle ridden people, but lets face it, my extended family is one of the biggest culprits. I can't weed them out, I love them. I have set up a lot of boundaries though. Sometimes I feel like packing up and moving! (Insert scream here).

I know that I am not the only person out there that is struggling with this problem. How do you overcome these types of obstacles? I have to find a balance and stop allowing other peoples problems (which I have no control over and cannot help fix) affect my life. Any suggestions?

On that note... I have to set some goals for myself. I am going to make a menu and workout calendar. I am going to have my husband and my niece hold me accountable to my plan. I am going to start journal writing with the hope that it will help me stay focused and relieve stress. And I am going to loose those DAMN 2 pounds I gained!

I will prevail!! ;)