Balance

Balance!?... Dare I say that word? This is my current obstacle. I know that everyone has busy lives. In fact, some people are WAY busier than I am and still have the ability to achieve a good balance between work, family, and taking care of themselves. I am currently struggling in this area.

Many of you know that I have a 15 month old, Chase. He is SO different than his sister was. He is extremely busy and determined. He climbs on everything! I swear if he makes it to the age of 2 without a trip to the ER it will be a miracle.

My daughter, Abagail, just turned 6. She is a goofy, fun spirited little girl; but lets face it, she is 6. She is a handful all of her own. She is experimenting with testing limits to see if her Dad and I will follow through with consequences, and wants to go and do things independently that I am not willing to let her do yet.

These two strong willed little turkey's wear me out! Not in a physical sense, but emotionally. I feel like I am constantly telling someone "No!" or counting to 3, or pulling Chase off of something. Not to mention that little evil word..."Why?". I try to be patient and actually answer "why", but lets face it, by the end of the day I want to SCREAM!!

So my truth is, my daughter goes to kindergarten at noon and my son usually goes down for a nap at noon too. Abbey is home at 3:30 and Chase usually sleeps until 2:30 or 3pm. So I have 2 whole hours that I could be devoting to working out almost everyday, but I just can't! I find myself trying to repair the damage on my house, (dishes, toys scattered, laundry, etc.), or just sitting and vegging. Sometimes I just feel like I cannot move!

Please do not misunderstand, I am not complaining. This is the life that I have chosen and I love it; and I do not question my choice for one second. But I have friends that have more children, a job, are involved with more activities, etc. and still manage to make the time for themselves. How do they get that kind of energy? Am I pooped out because of my weight? Is it just part of my personality? Or have I not made myself a priority yet? How do I achieve this balance? This is so frustrating!